ROOTED RENEGADE

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to get up and tell your story to a crowd of people?  what would they say?  what would they think?  Do you think you could really do it?  Would you be too nervous to speak?

These are just some of the questions many of us have asked ourselves or others who have thought about sharing our testimonies with other people.  Testimonies aren’t the easiest things in the world to write much less share.  Sometimes I sit down to start writing mine and I get so sidetracked that I never make one sentence.  Then others I get a little bit done and think “well that makes no sense” or “if I said all that I would be committed”.   They are fickle only because we are at times.  Parts of us are still hiding behind a wall that we are afraid to break down or peek out from behind so we dance around that part of our stories when we write which in turn makes it really hard for us.  Hard because we then have to maneuver our stories around like some kind of maze the kids go through around Halloween.  It’s difficult and to be honest can be very stressful.  I have come to realize that as I have begun writing again that it’s time to just remove the walls and stop playing peek-a-boo with the events that have transpired in my life.  It is what it is and far be it from me to not help another person by hiding behind my past.