ROOTED RENEGADE

As I sit here reading about identity

I realized the reason I wanted you to be proud of me.

For years I struggled making sense of who I really was.

Bound by chains of a man.

Trapped by curses of a heritage.

Do I go left? Right?

Forwards? Backwards?

Up? Down?

I break free from one chain

Only to be bound by another.

My mind swimming with insecurity

Heartbroken trying to feel loved by you

Wanting praise for a job well done

Knowing how that day will never come.

Well…now that is out, all said and done

I know you’ll both never read this

So maybe the battle is half won.

Taking my life back has not been easy.

I’ve really had to stop trying to be pleasing

To everyone around me except my Creator.

Not knowing I would need to pen out these words years later.

Anyway thanks mom and dad – I can finally see,

It’s not man’s approval that I really need

I hope you are both in Heaven with Jesus…

One day we’ll see.

@B3autfullyR3deemed2020

Sometimes we need to get our healing out in ways that speak to the outpouring of our souls. Both of my biological parents are passed away and were a deep part of my trauma and now the forgiveness is part of my healing. Jesus meets me where I am every step of the way. I hope and pray He did them too. Loving people through the act of forgiveness can be hard but it is a necessary step in moving us forward.

Invite Him into every space of your life, including the act of forgiveness. He will come in and help you mend those places, heal those places, whatever needs to happen.