ROOTED RENEGADE

Most days it is hard being in a rehab full of women with the only escape being the hours you get to leave for work.  Then you go to a job that on some days can be stressful but you are so thankful that you get to escape one reality that you aren’t sure how you get through each day because most times you don’t feel as though you are treated like an adult much less an equal human being.  You have to turn your phone in each night, you have to have someone stand over you while you take your medicine each morning and night, you can’t sleep in past certain times on the weekends if there is programming, or you can’t come home and do whatever you want past a certain on certain days if there are places to go.  Or you get chastised for a mistake that you made when the person chastising you makes the same one on a weekly basis.  I mean really!  At what point do you get to be an adult?  Only part time?  But then again the flip side to it is that you are safe when you come home every night, you aren’t around people who are really gonna hurt you or drag you down they just really get on your nerves.  You have a nice room and comfy bed to sleep in and food on your table to eat.  You have nice clothes to wear that you worked hard for and it’s all legit and you have to be thankful for that as well.  So the internal struggle becomes so hard sometimes that you get so upset at yourself because you are trying so hard to do what is right that you sometimes forget that you are human as well and that you can’t be perfect.  Only Jesus was perfect and he doesn’t expect perfection from us.  He just expects us to be real, be righteous, and be relevant.  He expects us to do everything as if we were doing it for Him and with love and when we make mistakes to own up to them and forgive others as we are forgiven.

Is there a magic formula that makes it easy?  No.  There is a book that helps guide us along the way, but nothing magical so to speak.  Sometimes we look more to people for answers than to the Father.  I know I am guilty of this myself.  It’s time we look back to our Creator for guidance when the struggle is real and less towards those who are struggling themselves.

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