ROOTED RENEGADE

When God shows you an aerial view of your life…what you do with it can say a lot about the direction you are willing to go in life.

What do I mean by that? Since I have been off all social media sites, I have been able to refocus. My distractions have been eliminated. I have been able to focus my attention of the Father and what He has been trying to show me for quite some time now, but I was so wrapped up in what everyone else was doing, what they were posting, what they were eating for dinner, where they were going on the weekends, what their kids were doing, who they were hanging out with, etc. I was unable to to truly sit down with the Father and pour out my heart to Him. The last four days have been exhausting. They have been emotional. They have been mentally draining. I have received an A to Z aerial view of my life in abundance and my friends it has not been easy. But let me tell you that the tears have flowed without warning. They have been hard to choke back and I am a tough individual. I am a warrior, not just a survivor. I don’t cry at weddings or funerals. I listen to stories of brokenness all the time and tears just don’t fall. They may well up in my eyes but no matter how hard I try, I can never make them pour down my cheeks. Until I stopped scrolling. Until I stopped letting the enemy keep me distracted by something as simple as social media.

People have been trying to get me to cry for close to a year now and on a couple of rare occasions has it happened and even then, the tears came out half heartedly. I was taught not to cry. I was taught a couple of years ago that tears were a sign of weakness and to suck it up. Put on a fake face of you must, but not to let those tears keep falling. Suck it up buttercup, to put it nicely. But cry you must not!

To say the “Off the Grid” Challenge has proved to be more than just a “off social media challenge” is an understatement! It is a “get back to God” challenge. An “intimate relationship with Yahweh” challenge. It is healing like no other. One I never saw coming and where I first saw weakness in tears I now see relief. I now see and understand how my Redeemer, my Comforter, and my Rescuer, catches every tear and stores them. How he counts them all and has a purpose as they aren’t detrimental to me. I am not weak! I am victorious! I am stronger because I can release such beauty. I have freedom now that the river flows again! No longer the Dead Sea but the Jordan!

Ah but the Beauty for Ashes the Father will bring when we come to Him with our true selves and release what was meant to be His all along!

Day 4 off the Grid!